help me

I am having such a hard time lossing weight. I have been gone for awhile i am back now and need your all help and surport i am here for you too. I do not like the way i look and niether does my husband for he tells me so.please help me i need you all for surport.i do want to do this and i am here now for as long as it takes one day at a time.I look in the mirror and i am fat and not that pleasing to look at and i hate the way i look. So help me please

I am newbie at this. I need surport in my path to lose weight. I have tried and failed. My husband is always on me about my weight. He makes me feel so bad about myself. I should not be judged by my weight. It is so hard to do so. He makes me cry when he makes his comments. I think with some good surport i can do this. So please help me. I have 5children counting his. We have 13 grandchildren.